ouh shit!! i got the feeling of getting new set of electric guitar now..
damn stupid to sell of my guitar stuff last tym...all because of not working..
broke and out of cash...i go sell those things off...now...bontot gatal..
nak gi beli alek...damn it la..siak!
hmm....

ouh, i tot of going to (super junior concert) next year on january 29th
hmm..my darling cousin is going with her siblings n friends...she's asking
me to tag along...but too bad i got no cash to go....'some' ppl telling me..
to ask my bf for it... to me..hell no! i dnt wanna sound like a gold digger
or sounds like a burden to anyone.., i juz can't ask for it...from anyone..!
anyway...i juz need to wait for (super junior) to come again next tym..
then maybe i can go...insya'allah...

i dunno why...earlier i chat with my bf...i feel abit odd..
rite after when i told about 'e hantaran' thingy to him...
his face changes somehow... i dnt wanna pressure him or something
but i oso dun want to sound like i got a degree or sometime..
im stupid not educated shit... who want me?? hmm... like i said before..
im not worth anything...but a burden to everyone..
about the part where he pass me his credit card...
i felt like shit sey... i dun want ppl to think im a gold digger or watever
hmm...why cant he pass it to his mum instead of me? or even his sister?
maybe his juz trying to test me or something...?? hmm...
honestly i cant hold it..i have no right of holding it..
i juz know him like for a month and now he pass me his card??
hmm...tomorrow is our 1st mth anniversary...
and i tried so many time...not to start a fight with him..since i care n love him
so much...i juz hope...we can change our temper for good...
since i notice he easily explode..to any small thing...that really make him angry
about...second tot...i think back...omg!! he juz like me? gosh...!
hmm...his the first guy that i ever date..dat can get angry at me back...when
im angry..! hehhe....maybe i need sumone like him...to handle me..and my temper..
since im tryin to control his! lols

yea...i cant sleep..ever since his away...im getting bored..
no friends contact me while his away...
no phone calls...no msges..
nothing!! accept his the one who call me..tru skype!
this is me..when im in love with sumone...
his the only one...in my life/heart/etc..
i would never do anything to distroy our relationship..since his good
to me.., i stop making new friends in tagged..ever since i got him in my life
i only accept friends in tagged...but i nvr reply or keep in touch with them
coz i dun want my bf get jealous or angry or stop trusting me...for that..
im not that type of person...i juz hope nothing change...between us..
even if my ex keep contactin me...
i juz need to change my number...since my bf said..he is passin me one
of his line number...so i juz have to wait..for my prepaid to finish..and
wait for his safe return home..to singapore..that i definetly change for good
so that my ex won't contact me anymore..and i can be more happy then before..
with my loving bf...hehhee....
yes indeed i love him....and i deeply sickly..biolness...missing him like crazy..

i juz can't wait for u to return home syg...
eventhou u have a next job waiting for u at australia...
for 6weeks stay...1 weeks rest...damn...
i can feel that this would be more tougher then
this new zealand job....damn...
think positive hani!!! his out for job..and make money for his
love ones...pape pon...i always..love u no matter what..
juz hope and pray that his love is juz for me..and only me! :)

love u dear.