hubby find a way about where to get 1k for our bto house appointment tomorrow..
which he go to posb bank and ask for a loan...which approved! and he even get $4800
and his mum also borrow him $680 for the photography which we needed to deposit first before
we collect it.. so now we got more then enuf..which make me really stress free...
but hubby got the idea of make it double..as for me too...i juz got the feeling too...
so we decided to double our money then...which is our biggest mistake...coz we lost it all
first day $2300 second day i seriously dun wanna go again...coz the big amount on the first day we lost..yet again hubby wanted to go again...which seriously my heart was like...damn!! why cant he notice the way i said ok....or anything...i juz want him to be happy..but it was a mistake...big mistake....!! we continue going..for 6 time..in 3 days...haiz...migraine is back... which hubby say its ok? its ok? to me...damn dear...we lost everything and u said its ok??? fine...

next tym u go urself aite,..im not tagging...along..

so that i wont know how much is gone..or i get addicted before u teach me to go there..
sorry dear...but if we keep on going...our rezeki..will never stay with us...allah will always..give
us hard time..and giving us chances to change..!

im sorry i had enuf....

date of loan 20 march 2012

hdb - 21 march 2012 (over slept)

22 march/23 march pocket empty

sell off my beautiful awesome ipad 2 3g wifi 64gb white..thru ebay
was the hardest thing to do... haiz.......

he seems to change somehow..

he forget how he use to make me fall in love with him..

he recently get angry so easily this few weeks..

"what did i do wrong"?? haiz...

i questions myself ever since... did i say something wrong??

or did i do anything wrong?? or did i change?

haiz... questions kept running tru my head...

why is he always..angry or raise his voice up..to the tone i dun wanna hear..

i tried to calm myself..and said to myself..maybe his tired due to work etc..

he lose weight so much like i do.. im worried... syg plz dont do this to me..

i cry everytime..u in this kind of attitude..

was i a burden to u? did i bring jinx to ur life?

i accept u eversince we know each other..

i know u have alot of dept to settle... but when it come to paying the bills

when there is a shortage of ur salary...u pissed off.. and keep stressin out..

im worried...dear... please..try to find a way to settle it..

i had enuf..crying over u.. i had enuf..tears drops for u..

its tym to shake things out dear... relax urself..

if there is something i could do or help u with...insya'allah i will help u..

till the very last breath i take..

please remember how u used to make me fall in love with u..

dont ever change.. i will always love u dear...muacks..

relax aite...everything is going to be alright...insya'allah...amin!

so deeply in love with my hubby so much!!!

he's my everything

omg....i cant say any words..but i love him

so so so much!!

seriously the love that i felt now.. i never felt like this before..

syukur alhamdulillah i found my life partner..insya'allah till the

day i die...amin,...

thanks allah for sending and showering me with love..

:)

love u syg..hubby!

feeling sad..and unhappy about myself...lately..

too stress...and i cant focus..that much...

hmm...what's wrong with me nowdays??

boredom strikes!!!

im juz bored!

follow kak lyana (3rd sis) to dentist and we when ikea after that..

saw a mediacorps artist smting awaludin..hehe..he is my favorite..

but yet..he so arrogant! eeee...from like go to dislike st8 away!

then a night about 8plus i reach cck while hubby is waiting outside

corridor..smoking..he insist me to start calling him "abang" hehehe...

well i try okey...it wasnt easy i tell ya...hehe..

after 10mins he ask me out for dinner..so i call my bestfriend (shasha)

to tag along with muz (her husband) which they always never fail to keep

us company...(luv u guys) they're super called our blood now..

they are easy to meet nowdays..after we both are married..

unlike "fida bubble" dier luper kwn habis..."fed up" pfft! always make

a false meet up thingy...nvm! end that story..

now we twinnie (myself and shasha) plan to go on a holiday juz the

two couple of us...maybe juz malaysia..not that far away place..

i juz wanna relax..my mind.. which depends on hubby salary..

insya'allah...but deep in the corner of my mind.."i wanna save the money instead"

rather then spend it..on vacations..since we both were tights on our pockets

lately..after hubby didnt work for 3mths..."its super tough" never in my life

felt this kinda feelings..."dugaan dan cobaan" but alhamdulillah we cope things out!

syukur..

its been long time since i last update my blog..about my life..

well i have change and i learn to be a women..and responsible wife

and mom to my angelz "cats".. i love my angelz..and my husband so much..

they meant the world to me...without them...i dont know what i do...

recently we celebrate our 15mths together as a couple..

and celebrate our 7mths wedding anniversary..

hope we keeps on counting till e every moment we both close

our eyes forever..insya'allah...

now im hoping that soon we will get our own house to stay..

where my angelz will always be around me forever..

and finally try our best to have our every own kids..

insya'allah (kalau diizinkan allah) amin...

hope it will soon too.. coz my mum really wanted to see our kids

before her time comes..which i really dont want it to come.. :(

love u mummy..muacks..

to dearest hubby..

no matter how bitchy or arrogant i be

or i always pick a fight or start a fight..

i love u always sayang..i know im pain in e ass

sometime..but i cant help it sometime..i gotta tell u what

i felt in my heart..that not all the time that ure always right.

yeah...we have our UP and DOWN.. but we still work things out..

alhamdulillah..look at us now.. we are happy..and deeply in love..

syukur kepada nye..

i always pray for ur safety..at work or whatever u do dear..

coz i cant seem to see ur hurt or sick.. it really breaks my heart..

coz i wanna tell u this my love..

ur the best boyfriend..

the best friend

the best counselor

the best mentor

the best advisor

the best guy i ever known!

ur my husband and i love u for the way u are..

truly urs sayang - ur wifey.. muacks!

so remember..that i always love u..no matter what..

only at times when things goes hard on us..

our mind keep changing thats where i need us to be strong

to face whatever comes towards our relationship or etc..k dear..

im abit worried now.. after..one of my niece

ask me..."do u have any baby in ur stomach"?

i smile and reply "no i dont...belom ade rezeki agy"

yet deep in my heart...is crashing!! insya'allah kalau ade

rezeki...insya'allah ade..."dat is what i keep telling myself"

to make myself calm! hmm...

yuyu's elder sis is pregnant! insya'allah this june 3rd

she will delivered a baby gal! insya'allah..

hope after her..she bring me gud luck..and pass it on to me..

rezeki utk ade anak! hehe...

soon...maybe next year...ade la rezeki..kite utk timang anak sendiri pulak

hehe..."wait patiently and hoping and praying to allah.." insya'allah...

amin... :)

hubby got a new job...syukur alhamdulillah..

he's back working with CORE IRM.

to me syukur...atleast he's working and there is money

to pay all his dept! and im with it...

coz i dun1 to be stress every end of the month thinking..where to get money!

hehe...

anyway..im juz so blessed!! and thankful to allah..

syukur alhamdulillah..

next insya'allah...rumah la pulak..

saat yang ku nanti-nanti kan..hehhe