me and my family..go to jalan rajah..to set up deco..
im having a fever..bad one..,coughing..sore throat..
i didnt help much this time..,my sis..is going home..with her baby..
i tag along..but poor mummy and daddy..dey face..look like..please dont leave us here
coz usally i help alot...,due to fever..i decided to go back with my sis..
itz suck...coz i didnt help..and some more..i didnt have my extra money..haha
hmm..oh yeah...before i go back..i help my mum go buy food..at this..one place..
shoot..! i forget d name of d mkn place..hehe.
while i was waitin..for d food i order...,d oppersite shop..have alot of channel 8
star..like joanne peh..(my favorite) pierre peng,shawn someting hehe..alot la..
oh..and babyface..
my brother-in-law..ask me to go and take picture with them..but,,omg
im so..out of place..(my clothing..is from mars..dat tym)hehe..
so i said no..,
but i regret it..siol..!! damn stupid..hehe..
anyway..yeah..dats it..

why isit so hard for me to forget him??? omg..
still think about him tho..(crap..)

please god help me erase him from my mind and heart..
i dont want to be hurt anymore..

im feeling down..
im down with flu..itz suckz..

dunno wat happen..
feeling kinda lonely..and datz really suckz..

i noe dis..guy..., okla.. attitude..all ok
btw when he told me..he like's me..
i just say gdbye..like i dnt noe..
happen to me..,like after my break up..
i can't seem to move on..
omg...! please help me move on

haha..
itz sound stupid..but yeah..
itz hard for me to forget about him....

i meet my friends sha2 again..today.. ard 3+
meet her at tampines mall..,before she arrived..
i go shopping 1st..,buy 3 ladies sweater..black sleeveless
and a sunglasses..then we eat at kfc..we chat2 then when
shopping again..and itz tym to go home..she told me its to early sey..
i said let's watch movie..haha..then she said..omg!! why never tell her
early?? she oso wanted to watch movie..but itz to late., i have to go home oready
mum call my cell..tup3..i take bus 168 when st8 home...hahax,
i reach home ard 9+

my aunt come over but i missed her..by 30mins..
she when home oready.., but she told my mum
that her future son-in-law..what's to match make me..with
his friend..? and his friend..oso really wanted to get to know me..
to me like ok..?? but im a nobody.., no aducations..and all
i told my mum..who really wants a girl..who have no future with??

look at me and asri..?? he's from poly..me?? no where?
end up broke up..with him..because..of his family??
i know the main reason why...
im disable..unwanted person..that's who i am..now and forever..
haiz..hopefully everything change..and change soon..

and hope that i can heal too..

btw...shud i say yes to know hidayat friend??
or..i juz keep being single..?
omg..!! im afraid that all guyz have the same..attitude..

oh..god..please help me..
release me..from..what ever bad thing's are going to happen to me..
i had enuf..already..

im tryin to love myself first
before i can love somebody else....

why..?? im sad because of you..
i cry because of you
i love you..
i miss you..
i care about you..
but that still not enuf for you....

im down and upset..ever since i saw you again..
i can't focus..i can't forget about you..
why you do this to me..??
why shud i fall in love with you..??
what happen between us??
hope that we can still be together..coz
im loving..you
and missing you so much..

only god...knows and hope he answer my prayers....

i meet my old frens today..i wen out..ard 1..reach at her place..ard 2+
shasha u look so different sey...and she said i oso..hahax.. ard 5+ we kuar
we plan to meet fida too..so we wen to bugis..do some shopping
surveyin..and go grab something to eat..haha..we share something abit..
and weird part is..she noe asri..omg!! she ask me how he look like..e.t.c
so..yeap..i guess she noe..,wen we were talking about him..we are in d mrt.. towards.. bugis..
d train stop at bedok..and omg i saw him..haiz..itz hard to belive..yeap..i saw him..
i was like damn..!!! why in da world..u pop out from nowhere...omg..
why must i saw him...im tryin my best to move on..sey..
now..all i think is about him..shit!!! ntah la..
if we are not meant for each other..plz god..i dont want to see him anymore..
it hurts..and im still hurtin...,

anyway..fida didnt show up..so i hang ard with shasha frens..all biol2
jgk mcm dier..hahaz...even myself la..hehe..
well itz fun..hanging out with them..hope to see them again..soon..
coz..wow..aku dapat alek lambat siol nari.. ard 12 aru aku pai umah..
power giler..kuar sorg agy lak tu..hahax
anyway yeap..itz been fun..
hope to see you again darlz...soon..i hope..!! haha

sadness attack!! haiz...

show off..the tix..!! wahahaha!!!

this are the tix..i buy tadi at lot1..(pussycat dolls live at singapore indoor stadium) excited giler!!sampai aku show off..hahahax...!!! well to the guyz..yg da beli..SEE U THERE!!
hehe..

around 1pm..i wen out..took train..to chua chu kang..lot1
to purchase..4 tickets to pussycat dolls live in singapore indoor stadium..
hahax..im excited giler siol..i book..tix dat close to the stage...!
yanti contact me.rite aft i reach home..she ask me..so how..
which seat we got..!! i said way closer den we watch avril lavigne back in sep 2008
wow!!! power giler..she laugh..and scream i cant wait..twice..liao..
den i oso join her madness..hahahax..,now..i really can't stop smiling..sey..
juz have to wait till..the day come..itz on 4th june 2009..
like 2 3wks more..sey..haha..
anyway..hmm...yeap..im damn excited.., ouh..yea... i forgot
juz now..i dunno why..i think about my x..
hmm..i was in da train..and listenin to the slow meanin music..
den he pop out at my brain..hhmm...weird..!

itz mother's day today..i havnt hav any idea..wat to get for my loving mum..
ard 7:30pm..yanti and her family come over my place..
i decided to go shop..with my sis..and buy cake for my mum,my aunt and my grandmum
celebrate..together since tak pernah buat...then we end up buying tender best spring chicken..haha we buy 5 chicken..liao..tu pon tk cukup..mkn..hahax..
i tot enuf sey...hehe..d chicken turn out to be small that i tot..hhahahahah!!
okla..dari pada tkde..benda nk mkn...but i promise..i get her..something biler dapat gaji nanti..
haha..!!

aft we mkn..me and yanti..talk about goin to PCD concert..
so..yeap..itz confirm..we are going..!!! hahax..i cant stop smiling sey
even now..hahax..happy giler...!

my niece tasha..ask me can i follow..poor kid..sey
she alwayz wanted to tag along but i say noe..coz..me tk cukup duit..
hehe..but hey..if i got money i bring liao..kesian..dier..!
but who noe dier nye rezeki..if my mum willingly nk kasi duit about $148
for her grand-daughter wow..will be great!!
but..hmm..i only can pray for her..haha! sorry darling..

anw..to my loving mum..
I LOVE YOU MUM

you're my earth..
you're my sky..
you're my everything..
till the day i die...,
i love you mum..
and i miss u alwayz..
i thank u..for all the love you gave..
cause your love to me..will never be erase..or replace..

i love you mum..muackz!!!

i take this pic at yanti engagement day this is a picture of me and my niece (bella) the pretty gal

yanti engagement day..

here is..my couz..and her man..dayat..yesterday..engagement day.. haha..i was tired..cnt upload..it last nite..so nie..la..my darlz..she beautiful gal.. anw..yanti..hope..u and yat be together forever hingga ke jjg pelamin..amin..

best wishes from me to you both darlz..!!

very tiring day...but im happy..it turn out to be..what we have plann..it..!!!
thank god...alhamdulillah..syukur..!!!
anw..i juz wanna wish maria...happy birthday..
and congratz on her engagement...with her man hidayat..(the joker) hehe
may u be happy with him alwayz..my darlz..
best wishes from me to you..my darling...



ouh..btw..itz confirm that pussycat dolls is coming to singapore
and we are going...and we both are goin..!!!! omg....hahax
happy giler..

today is my 2nd niece birthday... she turn 16
omg...!!! she is gettin older...but im gettin wiser..hahaha
damn im turnin 25 this november..and damn im old..siol..!!!!

my mum keep naggin..bila lah..kau nak kawin adek...!!
i was like what???? kawin??? i reply...ala..mak org tk kawin la..
org hidup single sampai..tua..,tup..tup..tup... my mum marah siol..
bagus...la tu..nanti mak da..tkde saper..yang nk gi jaga..kau..
huh?? pikir..ke situ lak..mak aku..nie..., ceh...think positive la..
jangan pikir bukan2... hehe...saper..yang tk nak kawin..kan??
juz lom ader jodoh jer...agi pon..duduk teperok kat umah..boleh
carik boyfriend ker??? hahaha...isk..isk..isk.. relek la..mother
i get married...when d tym come..aite... juz chill for now..
juz don't get ur high blood pressure..naik..!! hehe..

and yeap...!! shamira..!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

btw...............................,
i love you mum... hehe alotz muackz...!!!

pcd coming????

i heard..pussycat dolls..is coming to singapore..!!!!
but i dunno when??? hahaha...

hey..i wanna go..but still dunno yet..izzit true..they're coming..
or...false alarm??? hehe...hopefully betul..sey...!!

im counting down..d days..to my couzzin engagement..day..
i juz cant wait..for it..!!! hehe...

she's my gal..and im happy for her..
and hope..everything..will be goin smooth..
as plan..

hopefully..there's no..bad person..or(sialan)
hehe..who..wanted to crash the happiest moment
of her life..

hopefully takde..ar..

im not sure..what am i suppose..to write..down.., hehe anyway..
a guy in msn told me..i piss him off..which i didnt..duh..!
he said..becoz..i didnt mit..him..or even chat with him...on the phone..
den i was like..okie.., coz..im not use to it..
last convo..is with my..hmm... itz 4mth ago...(hard to believe) yeap..
time travels fast..!!! den..he said...i havta move..on.. which i did..
anyway..who da hell..is he man?? we are not even close..
well he did..ask me to be his conpanion..which i didnt say yes..to it..
you noe..chatters..!! hard to believe.. bt yet yeap.. i havnt say anything..
i did..say..itz to fast to ask for dat..now..coz... i need..to know him better..!!
yea..what da hell..

itz..MAY already..!!! yeah....
the month i been waiting for....
d month dat my couz..got engage..
ouh..i can't wait...!!
can't wait..till 9 may... her birthday and engagement day
happiest day..for her..., and me..(tompang gembira...)
happy for her..omg!!! so happy...
hehe...