hubby find a way about where to get 1k for our bto house appointment tomorrow..
which he go to posb bank and ask for a loan...which approved! and he even get $4800
and his mum also borrow him $680 for the photography which we needed to deposit first before
we collect it.. so now we got more then enuf..which make me really stress free...
but hubby got the idea of make it double..as for me too...i juz got the feeling too...
so we decided to double our money then...which is our biggest mistake...coz we lost it all
first day $2300 second day i seriously dun wanna go again...coz the big amount on the first day we lost..yet again hubby wanted to go again...which seriously my heart was like...damn!! why cant he notice the way i said ok....or anything...i juz want him to be happy..but it was a mistake...big mistake....!! we continue going..for 6 time..in 3 days...haiz...migraine is back... which hubby say its ok? its ok? to me...damn dear...we lost everything and u said its ok??? fine...

next tym u go urself aite,..im not tagging...along..

so that i wont know how much is gone..or i get addicted before u teach me to go there..
sorry dear...but if we keep on going...our rezeki..will never stay with us...allah will always..give
us hard time..and giving us chances to change..!

im sorry i had enuf....

date of loan 20 march 2012

hdb - 21 march 2012 (over slept)

22 march/23 march pocket empty

sell off my beautiful awesome ipad 2 3g wifi 64gb white..thru ebay
was the hardest thing to do... haiz.......

he seems to change somehow..

he forget how he use to make me fall in love with him..

he recently get angry so easily this few weeks..

"what did i do wrong"?? haiz...

i questions myself ever since... did i say something wrong??

or did i do anything wrong?? or did i change?

haiz... questions kept running tru my head...

why is he always..angry or raise his voice up..to the tone i dun wanna hear..

i tried to calm myself..and said to myself..maybe his tired due to work etc..

he lose weight so much like i do.. im worried... syg plz dont do this to me..

i cry everytime..u in this kind of attitude..

was i a burden to u? did i bring jinx to ur life?

i accept u eversince we know each other..

i know u have alot of dept to settle... but when it come to paying the bills

when there is a shortage of ur salary...u pissed off.. and keep stressin out..

im worried...dear... please..try to find a way to settle it..

i had enuf..crying over u.. i had enuf..tears drops for u..

its tym to shake things out dear... relax urself..

if there is something i could do or help u with...insya'allah i will help u..

till the very last breath i take..

please remember how u used to make me fall in love with u..

dont ever change.. i will always love u dear...muacks..

relax aite...everything is going to be alright...insya'allah...amin!