yesterday..i had a huge fight with my dad..
he always blame me for everything...which i do and dont..
ever since ducky had done her stupid mistake..
mum and dad treat me..like im d bad one...
they scold..yell..curse many more on me..
for the past 3 years yeah..i just keep quiet..
but yesterday i couldn't help it anymore..,dad started it..for days..
with mum..quarrel bla bla bla..i get the blame again..cause i never cook..
dinner...for god sake..im sick..!! haiz..., i shout at him..it wasnt my fault..
im sick.., that part i say everything whats in my bleeding heart..

then my fucker sis...juz tell me..that she found someone to look after her kid..
i was like what the fuck...!!! i was crying...no1..even care to cuddle me..or calm me down..
that part i know where i stand in this fucking family...im fucking on1 to them..
i feel miserable..i wish to god so many time..take me away...take my life..i couldn't go on
any more...please god take my life...please...
maybe one day if im gone..maybe they will miss me..they will look for me..
i just felt running away..i even thought of ending my life..
i just cant take it anymore...please...!! just make it stop....