things that been playing in my mind!

ape penyakit yg aku ade?

ape salah aku..sampai orang bilang aku berubah?

ape dose aku sampai orang nak marah2?

kenapa asyik sakit kepala dan urat mata selalu sakit?

biler boleh ku ade umah sendiri? (boleh bawak angelz) *da tak sanggup berpisah*

kenapa aku lose weight sampai byk skali?

kenapa rambut aku gugur?

kenapa aku selalu fikir yang aku tak akan hidup lamer?

suker ke mertua ku pada diriku? kerana ku selalu sakit?

sanggup kah suamiku..hidup semati dengan ku? *jika ku betol2 berpenyakit*?

haiz...ya allah....tambahkan la hatiku ini

tenangkan la fikiran ku...

insya'allah amin!

26th july 2011

my world change big time...

mum was admited in ktph for 2weeks

due to stroke.. :( that moment really breaks me apart..

now november 11,2011

juz after 2days on 27th birthday..

i have to admit that i miz my mum so so much... :(::

we shared everything together...ups and down..

sadness or joy...everything...

mum total change after she had stroke... she could'nt walk

or talk like she use 2... i cant share things with her anymore..

coz i don't wanna think too much...

since then i keep alot of things to myself..

break tears and feels so alone..

only mum understands what i feels...

no matter what she gives gud advise...

dear god...please heal her fast. i miss her so much....

i miz traveling and talking to her..

i miz her laugh..

i miz her joke...

i miz everything about her...before she is down with stroke...

mak adik sayangkan mak..

amponkan dose adik terhadap mak..

adik takde niat nak marah2 mak..

im juz too stress mak.. nape mak macam gini..

kenapa harus terjadi pada mak..

adik takde siape lagi nak ngadu..nasib..atau sesuatu cite gambira..

alot of people didnt realize why i change..

they never ask... but they always complaine..

"u change alot" "ure not the same"

there is alot of answer that i show.. still no1 get it!

i know takdir..da tertulis yang mak kena stroke..

tapi i still tak boleh terima..nape mak..

nape mak aku yg aku sgt syg...jadi mcm gini..?

tiada siape lagi yang aku boleh ngadu..atau bermanje..

coz mak byk diam..and fikiran sendiri..

ya allah...sembuhkan lah penyakit ibuku..

berikan dier kekuatan..utk tempuhi segala ini...

ampon kan la segala dose nye..

hanye padamu ya allah..aku berdoa.. :(:::

tears can't stop falling everytime i think of mum

at time i wanna go back to mum place..juz to see if she is better

and mean time hilangkan rindu...dan hilangkan rindu pada angelz (my cats)

but stress tak abes2...

mane rumah tak terhurus

bapak marah2..

stress dibuatnye...mmg balik umah yuyu relax..

tenang...tapi tak samer dgn balik umah sendiri that i been living for almost

half of my life..there... :(

takde ke siape yg tahu ape didalam hati ini??

missing my mum so much... :(::

miz the way she was...

love u always mum... muacks..

1 year anniversary

today we celebrate our 1 year anniversary on 20th october 2011
exactly 1yr back..where our love blooms..hehe..
insya'allah..hingga ke akhir hayat kite...amin! :)

i wanna celebrate it... maybe watch a movie
or having dinner or juz go out!! hehe...
in the mood of love..*blush*

but both of us is having a flu! (-.-)
hope it will go away soon...insya'allah..

in two weeks time... hubby will be back... yeay!!!

cant wait for that... the only tym we spent together...
which is suckz... only 1week...but yet...still got time...da cukup
alhamdulilah..... hubby...u knw dat i love u so much..
i wll never ply ur heart...and i hope u oso dont play my heart ok?

i cant stand another broken hearted... or being hurt,,
i dunno what i do...if u break my heart...
coz all i been giving u..is all my love and care to u..
so dont break it...k syg...?? :(

i takot u tgl kan i...utk gal laen..or gal yg mengatal kan u! :(
haiz...nape la ade rase2 ni semua...hmmm...

sesungguhnye feeling paling aku tak suker...

hehe...whatever pon...love u syg,,!

and plz dont ask picture mane?
u nak tahu gi check ur damn hardisk.. n look for it urself
jgn nk suro i tunjuk or tgk samer2 since u knw i kepala angin..
so check sendiri pat hardisk tu..and pandai2 delete it!!! faham?
thank u... hope u tak tanye byk soal...coz I DONT LIKE IT!
JUZ CHECK U HARDISK N DELETE THEM THANK U!

love u syg... muacks!

moving on...

haha....i still love my hubby..
i juz get easily angry at...

but juz wish he didnt lie to me...

insya'allah...amin....

teary eyed after i found out on my hubby hardisk..
still hav his ex picture, questions dat came to my mind
is why still keep them? when u miss them u see does photo isit?
hmm...i was in shock tho..i try my best to be strong n think
positive..that does all are old picture...yet..another thing came out..
about his photo wif his ex-gf.. about e nick name... "yusyashidah8586"
i tot i was e only one wif him? tot datz his idea on our relationship??
he amaze me when he told me dat he came out wif this name "yushani8684"
i didnt know..it was made before he knew me.. hmmm... sad and tears..
now i totally hate that nickname!!! yushani? before it... its yusyashidah!!

yuck!!!!! hate it...and bullshit..!!
heart burnin when i found out that still hav his ex photo in
dat damn hardisk! he told me he already delete it!! months ago??
are u lying to me? or u missed deletin it??? argh,,,!!! seriously..
i need to cool myself down....

why does i think dat he..didnt delete it,,,
and wanna keep it as a memory???

ya allah...tabahkan lah hati ku ini...
aku sgt marah ni.... :( haiz...

if u ever lie to me dear...
i swear...i wont be happy..like i use to be!!

hmmmm........

happiest moment in my life...

25 june 2011

our big day!! :)

hugz!!! love u hubby...muacks..!!

(ur appearance is a great gift from Allah to me
i will always tresure every moment when we together..

keikhlasan hatimu untuk mencintai diriku..tak
terkata buatku..hanya ku mampu..untuk mencintai
dirimu kembali dan untuk selamanya hingga ku pergi..)

ur love - wifey - hani

loving u always hubby!

what are does words do i have to say to my hubby
that i always need him by myside.. every seconds
every minutes and every hours n every day?
i know his working in australia.. not much tym for us
to spent tym together...i need to be more and more patients
then before..life get abit more difficult after marriage..
maybe for this coming 5years to come.. insya'allah
we both can cope in anything and everythings.. :)

yeah honestly i really do miss my hubby so much
at times sometym it bring me to tears..if he is not around
or close to me..
i miss hugging him to sleep sometime..
i miss every little things we do...
like go out to catch movie..dinner fun tym.. laughin
jokes etc...

a month his out for work in australia.. and only a week at singapore
and spent tym with me and his family.. to me seriously not enuf.. :(
wish i could juz fly and be with him forever..in his arms...
i feel safe n relax when he is with me... yeah..sometym we fight..
but that wont bring us down.. we settle things fast...syukur alhamdulilah.
:) seriously i thank ALLAH for meeting me with my husband.. :)
alhamdulilah he can support me and take gud care of me..
eventhou there's up and down in relationship..but if we dont do wrong..
we never know what is right to do in future or to make things better...

yeah..main thing is i always need u around sayang..
no1 can understand me like u do..
i want ur arms tight around me and protectin me..
hugz.. love n miz u sayang...

i dunno why...im in tears now... :(
maybe missing u badly and i cant seem to be apart with u
anymore... this avril lavigne song really mean alot to me
u shud listen to it syg (wish u were here by avril lavigne)
that songs tell all..

i cry listenin to it..while thinking of u my dearest hubby...
love u... muacks!!

i gotta find job soon!! (-.-) i feel like a burden to everybody.. without money...without a career..without a life nowdays everywhere and everything use money... i can't keep asking around..or wait for sum1 to give me i got no life!! im a burden!! pfft!.. bills is stacking up..higher unpaid... haiz... :( why does this feeling always..come? why do i always easily get upset and feeling lonely.. eventhou i already found my beloved fiance.. ya allah..ampon kan la segala dosa ku.. bantu la hamba mu ini...

only 1 week

the only 1 week off...to spend tym with u happiest moment of my life.. time is precious...spend it wisely.. i juz wanna spend the whole week with u.. every seconds every minute every hour every day... and always... love n miz u dear...

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AVRIL LAVIGNE is coming to singapore on 9 may 2011 again..!!! im soooooo going for the 3rd time..!!! hahahax... fan giler!!! can't wait..!! can't wait to gooooooo!! :P yeay!!!! hehe

Engagement :)

Believe this is true

When i say I LOVE U

Every words i say

Only meant it for U

Ur my HEART

Ur my SOUL

Together we will be Till the moment we

grow old...

I LOVE U SYG...

March 27,2011 (Sunday)

Where u and me

Promise to stick TOGETHER...

In june it will be FOREVER... :)

blush!! love u dear...

hmm...

my baby is flying off tonite 10.10pm saturday night
now is already 3:05am,his in my place sleeping over..
its hard to not seeing him everyday like i use to for the past 3weeks
hmm...im sooo going to miss him...
his on my bed now..already in his dreamland..while i can't sleep
hoping saturday come late abit juz for me..to spend time with my syg...
i cant sleep..coz i dnt wanna miss a thing with my syg..
i really hope dat here is australia where he can work n meet me like always..
coz i cant seem to be apart from him..

his my everything to me..
my world..
my life..
my baby boi hubby...

i juz wish dat no matter what..
he will always be fine when his at work
or in everything he do..

end of next week..insya'allah..
his parent coming over..for discussion for our marriage.. in june
and its like a mini proposal..but without my syg around..
its juz his family.. :( how i wish he also come..so we can take picture..
but its ok...i juz wait for my baby to come back home..and retake new picture
of us!!! :) hee..!! gotta stay happy n smile always..
coz we are getting married in june insya'allah...
mudah2an takde ade ape halangan...amin..!

to my dearest sayang (yunus bin ahmad taib)
i love u syg... :)
eventhou we know tak sampai setahun..
i felt like i already knew u for years..
as i know u do feel that too..

kite abit similar..

kepala angin..
kepala batu
but!!!! both loving and caring for each other..
thats the most important thing in a relationship..


love u syg...

hope baby never betray n or my love..
since i already said...ur my everything so many many many times
so dnt ever ask me..if im honest or not..! i sidekick u den u know!
hehehe....

i harap baby setia forever..
pai i close my eyes..and rest in peace..

missing u always..

ur future wifey
hani daniel..

with lots of love...
muacks!!! :)

shocking news..!

im getting married soon..

june to be exact! hahax..

yeap..its fast...but da jodoh..

:)

this is me and my future hubby!!

blush!!!

i'm sorry

ppl keep telling me i change alot..
hmm...do i?? thats the question that been
playing in my mind...

hope i didnt bring hate to ppl i love or care..
im juz a human being...who is also have mistake
in the past or future if i did...

i didnt mean to hurt sum1 or...etc

im sorry if i change till i didnt realize..
haiz.... i hope they give me a chance to change
for the gud...insya'allah....

im sorry for everything..
for not being gud..or perfect..to anyone..