i found out that MJ (Michael Jackson) pass away..cause of heart attack..,thru chl news asia..
on 25/6/09 hes 50 years old..,
hes my 1st favorite singer..his music..is the best...
may allah bless his soul forever...

itz a shocking news for me..,im still shock till now..
but itz already faith.., god knows best..god loves him more..

i was..heartbroken by the sad news..
totally got no mood..the whole day...haiz..
rest in peace my idol..

im still trying to heal my heart..
still try to move on..
but yet my mum ask me..couple of days..back..
askin me questions..that brings back so much pain..and memories..
that i have with him, haiz..why..i have to be this why..?
why must i feel the pain..of brokenheart...??
plz...allah..help me heal..help me..erased him...from my
heart and mind..erased..him forever..., plz help me..cure me..
help me..heal..

my couz..msg me..ask tomorrow..im going to hidayat..opening or not..
hmm..i wanna go.but..dayat have a plan to matchmake me with his biz partner..
hmm...im abit shy la..,but..curious too...hahax..
anyway..maria ask me to go..meet her at bugis mrt tomorrow..ard 3pm..
omg...!!! what shud i wear?? u noe my mum..nie..happy giler.. mayb itz true
she can't wait to see me get married..haiz..
hmm..ok..mom.., i dunno what to say to you.. but make you happy..
she ask me to wear more to lady style..like omg..??am i not that lady enuf for you??
hahax..hai..mother..itz my life..if the guy love me..he does'nt care about how i look..but
what i feel..da bagus.., like take me as i am...etc..

yeap..,juz wish me good luck then for tomorrow..aite..
hope..i won't freak out..!! hahax..

hmm...today..my life is great abit..
due to my dad..helping me out..on taking me new laptop..and ipod touch..hehehe
so..i have a reason to be happy for once..in my life..hahax
but i hope..everything goes smoothly..as plan..,

anyway..due to my pc lagging..and da abit rosak2...
i got the suspect who spoild..my pc..hmm...nonid..to update d name..
but..d person know..who dey are.., im upset,,tho..
due to my hutang lom abes..but den pc da rosak..haiz..

anyway..d new one is coming soon..hahax..
with my dream ipod touch...so..nothing to worry about..la.
hahahax...happy giler siol...!! hehe..

i msg sha2 ard 10am..ask her what tym to meet this 16june..coz..she ask me to be her
hair model..hahax..,but then she reply..alamak babe..tak jadi ar..coz..tukar gi july lak..
hahax..lucky im in d happy mood..so..i ask her..so..this tym biler pulak?? she reply..later she check..and let me know soon..., and then she ask me..1st august free tak.., i joke..asal kau nk kawin..haha..then dier cakap..tak la kawin lamer agy..aku nk tunang..hahahax...congratz..darlz
im soooooo........happy for you..

anyway..im free that day..and i wont miss it for the world..
she's my best friend..and i'll be there..

hehex...cngratz again baby...

i just feel great today..dunno why..hahax
mayb..for once..im tryin to letting something go..perhaps
something personal..i gues?? hahhaxx..
life must go on..like in book,or ppl say..and now i see it clearer...
that im more wanted then i ever know...,
i have open my heart is love again..hehe..maybe now im in love with someone already
mayb thats the reason my happy giler...!! hahaah
well i cant update who the guy is..hmm...but i just hope..hes the one for me..
but i have a problem..choosing who..i want to be with..coz now..
there is 2 guy..playing in my mind and heart..both great guys...aiyoh..i smell trouble
tho...hehehe..,hmm..i glad im able to love again..coz usally i give up..
but..now..what the heck..!! guyz been playing my heart and feelings..
so i gues..i will try to love them but not that alots..hahax..see how they love me 1st.
im caring person..concern..sincere..and honest gal..but if thats not enuf for them
hmm...i dunno what else to do..but say gdbye to them hahahhaahx...
argh...!! im confuse..sey..
okla..jodoh di tangan tuhan..i juz serah pada yg maha kuasa..je..
amin

im scorpio gal here is the positive side and negative side..i read it from a book
call (uncommon sense) by dr.mel gill

scorpio (assessment of my essence)
positive side - healing,radical,passionate,intense,investigative,hahax..motivated
penetrating,probing,sexual..haha omg!,protective.
negative side - vengeful..haha..u can say so..hehe,suspicious,jealous..err..mayb..,intolerent
possessive,obsessive,overbearing,demands the impossible..

the year of the rat.
positive side - imaginative,clever,intellectually creative,passionate,quick,charming,generous.
negative side - anxious,suspicious,calculating..hahahax n opportunistic.

thats it..so..if u guyz dont think some are right answer..?? deal with it..hahax..
nah..im juz kidding

i hate to be blame...on something i didnt do..
control your temper..and dont hurt somebody else feelings...

this is something about me...and why the reason itz so hard for me to move on...

i can see..unwanted thing's..like spirit's..(benda halus)
itz not what i wish to see...i juz can see them..dats all..
tapi nampak pon tak slalu..sometym..je..nak mampos klu everyday..
mati terkejok aku..nnt..

anyway..i was attached before..twice..actually..,
1st boyfriend..i got..dier ader benda halus..nie..dari dier kecik..
he try to berobat..but then itz to late..coz..he da accept..that thing..
coz..once you accept it..the thing wont leave..you alone.., you need to find
a really good..person who can kill this bugger..! and the reason i break up with him
is..i dont wanna get involved..with the thing he got..susah nak cakap..

and 2nd boyfriend..laen skit..
even tho i love him so much..i make the decision to leave him..
coz...his dad..ader simpan benda halus nie..for him..
i pity him so much..coz..he didnt want it..but i think..da keturunan..
so he have to accept it..for the sake of his father...
i talk him thru..i ask him to get help..funny thing he oready did..before..i knoe him..
but still nothing change.., i even ask my dad..to help him..but..i guess..his father..dislike me
because of that...i wanna help him datz all..coz i love him..haiz..
after my dad help..something..happen...the thing..wont stop disturbing me..
appear..wherever i go..,so i know watz the reason why...i know that his dad..want me to stay away from his son..,the thing not only appear with different faces to scare me off..
it even try to hurt me..by cramping my legs..my eyes..and..even my heart..
so i cld'nt take anymore..i told my ex..what happen..he shock..and apologize for what happen..
my parentz ask me to think what i want..and for the best.., so i choose to make asri..hate me..
by..hurting his feelings..say that i hate him for this thing's..(but i lie) i say alot of thing..juz to make him say the break ups..coz i ask him for break up..he wont accept it..dier pujuk la..semua.
till one day he lose it to me..and say it..haiz..till then..we are over..but not my love for him..
i juz hope the best for him in the future..and in life..
i pray for him everyday..
hope god answer my prayers...

i guess is juz my luck to have bfs that have setan with them..??
hehe..hmm..hope for the next takde..hahax..so that i can live happily ever after..hee

anyway..yeap..that's my story..
juz wish me luck for me future aite..hehe

hidayat..invite me to his new openin shop..
haha..what shud i bring sey? as a gift? itz my couz..fiance
hmmm...i have to think of something...
he..open new..jamm place near bugis.. cool..
im goin to jamm there sumtym..when im free la..
dapat discount..hehe..
anyway..i run out of ideas..oready..
dunno what to write down..haiz..
aiyoh...!!! hehe..anyway.. i noe this guy..
very kind hearted person..caring..and etc..
i treat him as..close special friends..je..
ntah..nape..i cnt..go futher.., mayb im still afraid..to be hurt again..
haha..anyway..yeah..he is a nice..guy,caring..and more..
btw...im touch screen handphone...screen nye retak..sey...bingit je..
aru beli couple of mths ago...haiz..
me tk kn beli touch screen handphone again nampak gaya nye
hehe..da serek...hahax..


i juz hope..i can move on..soon..
and forget everything...
move on without any pain...
or tears fall on my cheek..hmm..
hopefully soon...

this is me and my couz...taking picture..before the concert start..!! hahax
sempat lak tu...hehe

itz..the day i been waiting for...!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahax...well im sick still down with fever..tho..
but what the hack..im still going to enjoy my day..
with my couz..at the concert no matters what...hehe
biar aku sakit nak mampos pon aku tetap pergi..
aku dah beli tixket siol..tak kn nk wasted...sey..
betol tk??? hehe......anyway..
i be back with the picture at the concert..!!! later tonite or
tomorrow..!! hehe..

i missing him badly
please god help me...