this is something about me...and why the reason itz so hard for me to move on...

i can see..unwanted thing's..like spirit's..(benda halus)
itz not what i wish to see...i juz can see them..dats all..
tapi nampak pon tak slalu..sometym..je..nak mampos klu everyday..
mati terkejok aku..nnt..

anyway..i was attached before..twice..actually..,
1st boyfriend..i got..dier ader benda halus..nie..dari dier kecik..
he try to berobat..but then itz to late..coz..he da accept..that thing..
coz..once you accept it..the thing wont leave..you alone.., you need to find
a really good..person who can kill this bugger..! and the reason i break up with him
is..i dont wanna get involved..with the thing he got..susah nak cakap..

and 2nd boyfriend..laen skit..
even tho i love him so much..i make the decision to leave him..
coz...his dad..ader simpan benda halus nie..for him..
i pity him so much..coz..he didnt want it..but i think..da keturunan..
so he have to accept it..for the sake of his father...
i talk him thru..i ask him to get help..funny thing he oready did..before..i knoe him..
but still nothing change.., i even ask my dad..to help him..but..i guess..his father..dislike me
because of that...i wanna help him datz all..coz i love him..haiz..
after my dad help..something..happen...the thing..wont stop disturbing me..
appear..wherever i go..,so i know watz the reason why...i know that his dad..want me to stay away from his son..,the thing not only appear with different faces to scare me off..
it even try to hurt me..by cramping my legs..my eyes..and..even my heart..
so i cld'nt take anymore..i told my ex..what happen..he shock..and apologize for what happen..
my parentz ask me to think what i want..and for the best.., so i choose to make asri..hate me..
by..hurting his feelings..say that i hate him for this thing's..(but i lie) i say alot of thing..juz to make him say the break ups..coz i ask him for break up..he wont accept it..dier pujuk la..semua.
till one day he lose it to me..and say it..haiz..till then..we are over..but not my love for him..
i juz hope the best for him in the future..and in life..
i pray for him everyday..
hope god answer my prayers...

i guess is juz my luck to have bfs that have setan with them..??
hehe..hmm..hope for the next takde..hahax..so that i can live happily ever after..hee

anyway..yeap..that's my story..
juz wish me luck for me future aite..hehe